When I was a little girl in about 4th or 5th grade I told my mother that I wanted to be a housewife and mother to about 5 kids. My mother, being the evil-negative soul that she was (is) said, "Don't you have more ambition then that?" Those hurtful words stuck with me throughout my life. They were what drove me to become a workaholic -to prove to her that I had ambition, I guess. They were what made me get my tubes tied after my second child so that I would please her. They were what left me feeling like there was a void in my life because I was not fulfilling my dreams, I was fulfilling hers and I wasn't even consciously aware of it until I hit midlife.
This year I have made some major changes in my life that anyone on the outside looking in would think was plum crazy! Like when I closed my profitable business to stay home and be 'domestic'. My husband is loving it because now he gets home cooked meals every day and our house is finally starting to get in order. My daughters think it is great because now I actually have time to go and visit them down in Arizona. The grandbabies and I are loving spending lots more time together.
Today I made homemade Beef Pot Pies for lunch...
Baked a batch of Devil Food Cookies that totally flopped...{well, they were ugly, but still tasted delicious}
and three batches of Gingerbread Hug Cookies that turned our perfect!
I have 4lbs of Whole Wheat Honey Bread dough rising on the table and three Wheat Baguette loaves cooking in the oven...
And even though I am dog-tired from all the mixing, baking, and cleaning up...I am as content as can be.
So this Thanksgiving I am thankful that I stopped listening to my mothers mean words, stopped trying to win her approval, and started listening to my own heart. I am finally the housewife that I always wanted to be and I am truly content, happy, and a peace!
What are you most thankful for this Thanksgiving? What would you like to change right now, that would bring you peace and happiness?
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I'm so glad you've found your bliss. My mom was what I would call "thoughtlessly negative." I don't think she realized the power that her words had over all of us. Oh, wait, I think she just had a mean streak too.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad I realized early what a powerful impact my words had on my kids. I wasn't always spot on and supportive, but more often than not I got it right.
Nanny Anna.....yep....suddenly when we hit a certain point in our life.....it happens...we are really born into our own. I love this post...I could feel your joy....smell the aroma coming from your home....and wishing that we could sit and drink a cup of coffee with one of those cookies......love a women who has found herself....there is nothing more beautiful.
ReplyDeleteOh my gosh but you just made me drool. Those look so good and delicious. Your husband is one lucky man. I burn pots after pots at my house. Sad for my hubby right? LOL. So happy you found what brings you joy and peace in your life. Thanks for sharing
ReplyDeleteI think you may have actually had the best of both worlds. Because you tried so hard to do "the rat race," you now enjoy domesticity that much more! Having the freedom to do what you want is a great gift. Enjoy it!
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Good for you! It's about time you get to follow your dreams. I bet you are loving more time with your grandchildren! Your baked good look great to me.
ReplyDeleteI have the opposite problem. I also wanted to grow up to be a stay at home mom of 2 or 3 kids and that is all I wanted to be. And now, at 37, I am a stay at home mom of a wonderful 3 year old boy and a 1 year old boy. The problem is that I wish I had something outside of the home, a career, something that I am passionate about because I suck at being a stay at home mom. I hate cleaning, I hate cooking, and I am terrible at them both. I love being with my boys all day, but I also wish I had something else to fulfill me. I want the best of both worlds and I'm not sure if that is possible. For now, I'm just trying to enjoy every minute I have with my little ones because I know they will grow up way too soon!
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness! That all looks sooo delicious! Good for you for doing what truly makes you happy! That takes courage :)
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